Day 4

Well...today was kind of a cheat day. Sort of.

I have to back track for second, and I know this is obnoxious, but if I'm really going to track my meal intact, then I HAVE TO DO IT!

So yeah. I had a Baby Bel last night at 10:00pm. I woke up in the middle of the night with cheese breath. It made me hungry. Thank god that deep down I was too tired to give a shit, and immediately fell back to sleep.

So today...got up early! Like, REALLY early. Like up-with-Dave-early. The alarm went off and some Gavin Rossdale song was playing or something, and I really seemed to be into it, and by the time the song was over, I realized that I wasn't sleepy.

Weight (Wii Fit): 153lbs
Weight (bathroom scale): 149.8lbs.
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Well, I weighed myself about two hours earlier than I normally do, so that MIGHT account for the weight gain. And then the bathroom scale said, "No, actually, you're not that fat."
So...I guess I'll put both measurements up there from now on.

As usual, took my multi-vitamin and Vitamin C tablet.

Started pedometer at 8:30pm. 4177 steps today. DISMAL failure. I need to go to Walmart tomorrow, so maybe I'll walk downtown for a bit.


9:00am
1 scoop strawberry protein powder - 3g
1 scoop Chia Pro - 4g


11:30am
Baby Bel - 0g

*note* I think the Baby Bels were a bad idea. I know they don't have any carbs, but they're there and they are too much of a temptation for me. They tempt me more than anything else in the house.


11:50am
1 serving beef ajouce - 3g
2 pinches of cheese - 1g

*note* I scarfed this down, and early too. My friend invited me out to see her office and then for a "meaty" lunch. I was scheduled to eat at noon and didn't know when we'd actually get to lunch, so... that's the reason for this.


1:30pm
2 cups spinach - 2g
Boiled egg, bacon, mushrooms - 2g?
1 tbsp raspberry vinaigrette - 3g???
Diet coke - 0g

*note* So yeah, went to BP's with my friend for lunch, and only an hour and a half after I ate last. This is what I considered my cheat. I cheated time, and seeing how I don't know exact portions of contents, I can't be sure of how many carbs was in what I ate!! I'm guessing I had about two cups of spinach. When I ordered I asked for no tomoatoes, and eggs, bacon, and mushrooms are all good things on this diet, so I gave myself two grams of carbs. If anyone disputes that, let me know and I'll change it. As for the dressing, it came with a differnt dressing, but this one was labeled low-fat or something, so I asked to switch. I know low-fat usually means high-carb, but I saw a raspberry vinaigrette at the store, and it boasted three grams of carbs, so that's where Iook those numbers from. Once again, if anyone thinks I cheated on those numbers, please let me know.


5:30pm
1 vanilla Atkins Advantage shake - 2g

*note* Because I had my last two meals so close together and I didn't know the specs for the latter meal, I didn't want to eat again until I was actually hungry. But Dave told me I should, so I did.
He's crabby today.


8:30pm
1 chicken breast - 0g
1 cup spinach - 1g
Boiled egg, bacon, mushrooms - 2g
1 tbsp raspberry vinaigrette - 3g
Diet soda - 0g
1 marangue cookie - 0.5g

*note* Dave made marangue cookies this afternoon. They turned out pretty good, I think. They consisted of 2 cups, I think, egg whites (0g), 1/2 tsp creme of tartar, 1 cup Splenda and a splash of vanilla. The splenda ended up to be about 13 grams of carbs, but there were two dozen cookies so there you go!


Anyway, I'm pretty disappointed by how today went. Hardly any exercise, and my carb count is WAY high. True, I had to make some of the numbers up myself, but even so...I need to eat MORE meat, LESS spinach. It's just hard to look at a small plate of meat and say, "that
s your meal." At least with breakfast I can have eggs AND bacon. There's a complimentary item. But just meat by itself...it's so...lonely.

Lonely is actually a great word to describe this. It's very lonely. Can't take part in any eating or drinking fun, it makes other people uncomfortable because they think they can't eat certain things in front of you. I spend my entire day alone, living for the next meal. That's it . That's really no way to live. That's why this diet has to work. It has to show some results. When that's all you're living for, then failure would be so much more than disappointment.


Chugged down 54 oz of water today. And yesterday as well.


Until tomorrow...
J. Thompson